PrEP by Walter Moore

PrEP stands for “Pre-exposure Prophylaxis” and is a measure that has recently been approved for HIV- individuals to take, that are at a high risk of contracting HIV, to lower the risk of them contracting HIV. Whether it is from being very sexually active or for those who are negative and in a relationship with someone who is positive. 

I bring up PrEP (which the medication given is Truvada) because, although I am not at this current time in a relationship with an HIV+ guy, I am in love with an HIV+ guy. He is in love with me too. 

We are not officially together, because I believe we are both afraid that the other won’t be around a year from now. Taking the step to get on this medication is my way of showing him that I am dedicated. I want to be around here a year from now… even 10 years from now. 

As a gay man, I think the idea of having a medication that can lower the risk of catching HIV is amazing! As a gay man, I love the fact that there have been so many advances in medicine that can extend the lives of HIV+ individuals to normal a length. 

I am negative. I get tested every 3 months and recommend everyone do so! Especially those who deal with sex addiction, as I do. Let’s get serious for a moment, okay? Being that we are gay MEN, are we not horny a lot, if not all of the time. It’s time we accept the fact that we are all horny too much for our own good. 

I mean I am 24 and my numbers are in the 100’s! There are many reasons as to why I have had sex with some many different guys, but you can read about that another time. 

I’m sure a lot of you are reading this thinking, “Damn ‘in the 100’s’? You’re a whore!” And you’re right, partially. But now I’m not, I have dealt with my demons and bottles that have caused me to think I need to have sex a lot to feel wanted. 

Since you’re probably reading this and thinking negatively about me, I am writing this and thinking are you able to judge me? Are you perfect? Have you had sex with one person and only that one person? Have you only had sex with your boyfriends? If that’s so, answer this question for yourself, have you had many boyfriends? And how many people have they had sex with? Once you think of it like that, it gets somewhat scary doesn’t it?

That is why I think Truvada for negative people is an AMAZING idea! Now it’s not 100% a guarantee to keep you from becoming positive. That’s because nothing in the medical field (which I work in) is 100% every time. Every medication works and affects each person differently.

However, isn't it worth a try? I’m sure at least one of you is like me, in love with someone who is positive while you’re negative or vice versa. I think this drug is worth it, so should you. 

If you want to look into it, the CDC has lots of information about it, but a couple of specific links you can check out our:

http://myprepexperience.blogspot.com

http://www.projectinform.org/prep

You can also check out my blog at http://realmidwestgay.blogspot.com to see how my experience with it goes when I get started. 

Thanks for reading everyone! Have a great day, a blessed holidays, be safe, and don’t forget to tell your loved ones you love them every day!

Written by ~Walter Moore

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I Like My Men Like I Like My Coffee

I am hardly a morning person. I hate mornings. Alarm clocks should never go off before 8:00am. Sadly, mine goes off at 3:00am some days.

Every morning regardless of the time, the first thing I do is clamber out of bed, adjust my morning boner, contort my body in some sort of yoga pose (Downward Bending Bone) in the bathroom so I don’t piss in my face (I’m not into that), and pour a cup of heavenly warmth; my old friend… coffee. 

Then I stumble back into bed, back under the covers to drink that cup. I usually have about three cups before I am able to converse with the human population and even then, it’s only grunts or “yes” or “no” answers. It’s a process.

Therefore, the best part of waking up really is the coffee in my cup, BUT let’s bring my love of men and coffee together! I like my men like I like my coffee… hot, strong, with a dash of cream and in my bed.

How do you take your coffee?

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Is Everyone Dick Obsessed, Except for Me?

Okay, okay don’t get me wrong, I love dick. Sure, I watch porn. I enjoy photos of naked men, but that’s pretty much it. I have concluded that everyone is obsessed with dick except for myself.

We live in a penis-obsessed society. There are annual festivals in Japan worshipping the penis. I don’t live in Japan obviously, but it feels like everyone is phallic cray around me. Everyone is like “Ooo penis, and I’m over here like, ‘Can I get some cheese fries?’”

I became increasingly aware of my indifference over the summer on vacation. I was on vacation with three other gay men for a week. They, of course, were actively seeking dick, and I just wanted to meet someone to talk to. Needless to say, I didn’t have that much fun. I was surrounded by gay men and felt completely alone because there was no one that was like me. Everyone was only interested in hooking up and blowing a load. 

As I’m getting older, I have discovered that there is, in fact, no one that is like me. Even the “nice guys” aren’t that nice. So if they are finishing last, then I must be stuck in reverse.

I can count on one hand how many sexual partners I have had. This includes all sexual acts; oral, anal, mutual masturbation. I had relationships with all of them. I wouldn’t call myself a prude. I have a mouth like a sailor, I write gay erotica and I’d be the first one of my group of friends to see a hot foreign guy and say, “I wanna put his dick cheese on a cracker.” of course I wouldn’t mean it. I would just say it because it’s vulgar and funny. I had sex a lot with my partners, I like sex, but I have always treated sex as a form of connecting with someone I cared about. Therefore, as you can see one-night stands are not my thing.

I wish I could be like the general gay public. Most of my friends open their mouths and bam a penis falls in, and they seem happy about it. I don’t know where my moral compass comes from. I’m not saying their promiscuous behavior is wrong; I’m saying it is wrong for me. They say, “Hello” by sending pictures of their dicks to strangers, and I say, “Hello” by saying, “Hello.” Sure, I appreciate a nice dick pic, but it is more of a turn off for me. I always look at it like this, if he is sending it to me, he’s sending it to other guys, and there goes that special feeling. My friends obviously use Grindr for hooking up; I use it to sell books. I admit it is funny. When I’m in a different location or city guys look up the info and then proceed to buy a copy of one of my books. It happens all the time. At least there are guys out there that like dick and reading.

I have been told that I am boyfriend / husband material, yet I’m single. Most gay men can only commit to their Netflix subscription so you can see why this is problematic. I don’t want the “open” relationship or be that couple that “plays.” I have tried dating sites that are supposed to cater to men looking for something more, but it is just the same guys that are on Grindr with nicer profiles. Maybe I need to move.

As you can see, I am in a rut. It’s rather lonely on this side of the rainbow. I feel like there’s no one that feels this way and even talking to my friends about this is hopeless. They don’t understand. They say, “Just get some peen already.” Hoping on some D will temporarily make me feel great, but the aftermath of “Why did I do that?” will haunt me, and I’d be worse off. I have a feeling the only dick I will ever be obsessed with will belong to my future boyfriend… wherever he is.