It's Just A Little Crush, Right???

So I've recently discovered that I have intense feelings for a friend. It started out as just a harmless little crush and has turned into a full blown facebook/cyberstalking affair. I haven't gotten to the point where "The call is coming from inside the house" yet, but I'm getting there. If I ever get that obsessed just put me in a white jacket and padded room! I'm 95% sure that Andy knows how I feel, even though I never (and will never) tell him. The fear of rejection is crippling and scary. Why do we develop crushes and more importantly why are they always on people we know we can't have? In a way I feel safe. I know nothing will ever happen and he can't break my heart because there's no chance of us getting involved. Hmm or can he still break it? David said, "Even though you don't think anything will ever happen it doesn't mean you haven't invested something into it. Protect your heart."

I find myself giddy like a twink when he's around and I haven't felt like that since my early 20's. That crush ended badly. I was very upfront with how I felt then. My friend knew everything, but in the end the friendship suffered and we lost touch for 6 years. I'm a firm believer that everything happens for a reason because now we are as close as ever and that crush has turned into something else. I now have a friend for life. I'm not sure what to do about the Andy situation. I don't want nor can't imagine not talking to him for 6 years! I tried the whole backing off thing, but that didn't work. He texts and sends me pics daily and if I don't respond he wonders what's wrong. I believe mentally I'm everything my crush is looking for. We have the same views on things and like most of the same stuff, but physically I'm not even close to his type. So what do I do? Well, currently I'm praying everyday that the feelings just go away or maybe he would just look at me differently. That's not really working so far. I guess there's a reason they call them "crushes" cause if they were easier I'm sure they would be named something else.